Lost Memories

Today my fren suddenly call me and inform me that they will come kampar.
I tot they juz kidding but they reli come to kampar.
At nite,i juz ring them goto utar celebrate mooncake festival.
After i come back from skul,i dunno y,i look like become another person.
I hopefully i get an accident and lost all my memories or i wan o sleep and lost all My memories on the next day.
Lost all my memories equal to my new life but this opportunity wont happen on me .
I nid this new life so i can forget all the thing,i can forget my sadness,my unhappy, and all my thing include my family.
This is not cruel,juz if i wan get the new life ,i muz pay out something,and that thing is my memories betwwen my family and me.
But if i got many time to make choice,i also will choose to lost all my memories,i wan i become more happy ,i dont wan live in the world juz hav me.
May be if i lost all my memories,all thing will start from zero,i nonid to face so many thing i dun wan to face it...
I so painful now..
Everyday,i wan to wear a mask ,it name as mask of happiness..
I nid to act nth happen around me,i am not actress,i not attending mask party and why should i wear the mask n act another person, like a stupid person..
Because too many thing happen around me recently,so it make me almost lost myself,i become another person,is that the result i wan before??
I always tell me self be positive,look forward and dont look back,all this thing juz a small matter and dun think much but i cant do it...
i make a decision,either i lost my memory or i giv up..
Finally is giv up,coz lost memories is not a thing that i can control,only giv up i can control...
I always sit alone and think alone,is that reli the final decision?
am i rite if i do like that?
Am i willing to giv up?of coz some answer is no but i believe my final decision i make,and i wont regret anymore..
I wan let it become part of my history ,let it become my past..starting from now,i wont regret ,i will respect my own decision and follow what i decide before..
Anything had past wont come back again ...

Moody?!

erm...y so many happen today although that juz a small matter buut make me so moody.everything i did juz like a idiot,a stupid gurl.At school also same,at home also same...what i did wont get any reply,better i dont want to do it anymore next time.And U,i juz ask u something,u can juz tell me "sry i am moody and i dun wan to talk this topic.."...but u use scold de wor...i not moody isit?but when i am moody,i din release all my anger toward u rite but u did it to me..did u care about my feeling?u think i am a doll isit?i reli nid a shoulder ..i very tired,i nid a shoulder let me take a rest..so thx joshen ...but anyway,i nid 1 ppl shoulder but i think i cant get it...

Happy

I found tat i like to look every prob very big even it juz a small prob...so juz make me so emo n unhappy...after i feel that i put down all the thing n face my prob as normal i become quite happy...i also wan my fern around me happy but i dunno got any method can make them happy when join with me...

Phone theme

wow...i saw prada white theme for my phone..very nice.i like it but it is quite complicated for me if wanna use it as my phone theme..may be i stupid..i tryin to find nice theme for my phone but quite difficult...haiz...i love prada white theme so much...wuwuwu...i wan get it ..got any more easier method??

web page design

today is the first day for practical for webpage design.it is quite boring but i still like it.the code make my eye blur n tired...haiz...keep on typing the code when the tutor teaching but after come bck home all this thing gone,my mind juz hav food coz too hungry liao..haha..quite happy today ,dunno y..haha

Put Down Myself

today is the second day of sem 2. from the first day till second day,i noe many thing.frenship is important n finally i noe my prob.i should learn how to put down myself,coz this is the only big prob for me.put down myself is a hard thing for me but i still nid to try my best to do it .i believe i can do it juz i nid some time.before tat i too selfish n foolish,i juz think about me n din care about other ppl..say sry,thx n welcome is difficult to me,but now i realize it is important so i also nid to learn this three word. not only this ,i also nid to learn how to forgiv someone.before tat,forgiv someone is difficult to me but suddenly i feel tat forgiv important too so i also nid to learn it.i always scold myself,dun think too much,everything is over,so i also nid to throw away my bad habit ,think too much..it make me so....i feel tat it is too many thing nid i learn but all this thing is the thing i muz learn..
**GAMBATEH TO MYSELF**

my mind control me

during tis sem break,i try to dun think about it but it still cant ,my mind keep on think about it...i force myself dun think about it but it make me more emo..so wat can i do..i try to persuade myself nth is happen but my mind keep on remind me there got something happen..wat should i do???T.T
I dun wan think about it ,wat can i do?sleep?after sleep i still keep thinking about it...eat?after finish eating,i still think about it ??/grrrrrrrrr............
Now look like is my mind control me ,not i control my mind...

HATE U

i cant tahan u liao....saw anything about u make me crazy..i wan punck u ...i wan kick u...i hate u very much...i hope u disappear infront of me ...u tot hu u r??
*I HATE U VERY MUCH*

Thx God....^^

finally the final result come out ad...luckily i pass the final..thx God alot..Luckily my final exam pass all, so all the thing i do b4 exam not waste..this is the last minute work for me so i will get this result is good enough to me..i uz hope i dun wan fail any subject..now my last minute work is worth..but anyway,last minute work cant let me achive my goal, so to reach my target,i nid stdy harder,pay more attention,try my best and no more last minute work so i juz can hit my target..Gambateh to me..good luck to me and congratz to me pass all subject..
**I SURE WILL MORE HARDWORKING NEXT SEM TO HIT MY TARGET...PROMISE TO MYSELF**

heena

heena..
kaka...

Before

after

What i hope on next sem..

1 more week wanna start my sem 2 life ad..i hope the time can pass faster so that i can start my sem 2 life faster..i am thinking that,isit that sem 2 will make my university life better,everything will be start from zero or beginning?I hope that my sem 2life is a new life for me..the thing i worry the most is my final exam result..== I dunno how about my result.Fail most of the subject or fail 1 or 2 subject or pass all subject?I think pass all subject is impossible for me...i wan start my new life but i dun wan get my final result..Hopefully all misunderstand will be resolve on next sem..

Mid-autumn festival

today is mid-autumn festival but very boring leh..wan see moon but raining...so unluckly de..very boring ar...no ppl celebrate wif me,stay home alone...lonely, i am so lonely....haiz...eat mooncake watch tv..= =

**too many misunderstand between us**